Always a Challenge

I lost almost 60 pounds and reached my goal weight on Dec. 8th, 2008.  I have maintained it successfully so far.  It is not without it's challenges though.  There have been times I'm 13 pounds under my goal.   (Felt really good at that weight)  There have been times I have been 1 or 2 pounds above my goal.  (Never more than 2)  


Maintaining is a whole other beast that is tricky to tackle.  I struggle with being content at where I'm at.  That thought of having to loose weight is always nudging me in the back of my mind.  I realize I'm doing well.  I'm exactly where I should be.  I just always have the thought that I need to loose more!  "I'm not skinny enough.  If only I could get rid of the little bulges on the sides of my thighs."  Maybe that's ok.  Maybe that's what has kept me from gaining weight.  But sometimes I wonder why I can't just be happy with where I'm at.


Is it the world's influence saying you're just not small enough?  Is it a feeling of not being good enough?  I don't know.  I just know it's a daily struggle.  I just have to keep doing what I've been doing and focusing on the fact that I have successfully maintained my weight for almost three years!  That is huge.  It's not an easy task.  I have made sacrifices and stayed focused.  I should be proud of what I've done.


I should be proud of what I've done.